So Saturday finally came. I watched Greg walk off into the squadron with tears streaming down my face and tried to pretend to be strong. I know it hurts him to see me cry, so I saved most of it for the 20 hour drive home. I went back to the apartment, picked up the cats, and started my drive. I thought about a lot on the way home. All of our goals, things we did for my birthday. Walking around San Antonio with coffee and hand in hand. Sure it was freezing, but we spent it together and I wouldn't have had it any other way. We ate at this wonderful restaurant on the Riverwalk called Boudros. It was expensive, but it was romantic and cute and pretty perfect. He is the most amazing husband in the world and I will miss him terribly. I had put in Sara Bareillas in Kansas because I was getting bored and needed something to start singing to. Well half of those songs are songs I used to sing to Greg when he was in tech school to put him to sleep. So in the middle of Kansas, in the middle of the tollway, I let it all out. Cried all my tears for this deployment, this war, this stupid deployment. Because I know more are coming, this wont be our last, and I know it wont be easy, and I'm frustrated with that, but I also know we can both be strong. So I'm hanging in there just fine. Theres even a chance he could come home early! yay!
So today is my first day of being home and coherant. I'm going to unpack my clothes, try and keep Leo out of the crawl space he loves so much already. (Been in there twice and I caught him going for a 3rd). Then this afternoon me and mom are running to Green Bay. Yay for days off :) Love you all!
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